Christopher M. Carrigy

Sara Bareilles - Gonna Get Over You

2011-10-24T17:06:00.000-04:00

Devin Townsend interview (part 3)

2011-10-24T16:16:00.000-04:00

Devin Townsend interview (part 2)

2011-10-24T16:06:00.000-04:00

Devin Townsend interview (part 1)

2011-10-24T15:59:00.000-04:00

Devin Townsend - Terminal Acoustic

2011-10-24T15:50:00.000-04:00

KoRn - Narcissistic Cannibal " Feat. Skrillex and Kill The Noise" ( Offi...

2011-10-24T15:49:00.000-04:00

Im in need of this.

2011-10-24T15:41:00.000-04:00

Occupy Wallstreet

2011-10-02T16:05:00.002-04:00

I can honestly say that I do not support in any way these kids who think they are being a part of the history of this country by sitting on some park benches and yelling about how they are poor and they want the banks to crumble down to the ground. My reasoning for this is not because I side with the banks...the gov bailing them out but mainly because watching what i've seen I don't think these "Kids" have a clear end game to this little battle they got going on.

All I've been hearing is people yelling about stop capitalism, stop the banks from foreclosing on peoples homes and that they are the 99%. There has been to much of a change in the upbringing of the latest generations of americans. We protect the kids now when they are growing up from having to defend themselves and learn life lessons like what it is about to lose and how it can make you a stronger person. This is also a reason why this whole "Anti-Bully" movement going on annoys the shit out of me. I wasn't a bully in highschool and I can't say that I was bullied a lot but it happens. I've been picked on when I went to school and it just made me tougher. Taught me how to deal with things in a different way. But now we have kids growing up going to school and they are teaching kids that everyone is equal in every way shape and form. Yes we are equal as people and have the same rights as anyone else I will never dispute that. Black White Asian Spanish we are all equal and deserve equal rights. But what this "99%" don't seem to grasp is that just cause we have equal rights does not mean that wealth should be distributed equally.

You have to work for what you get. Not just stand there and go well these people have all the money and I don't have much So lets take more money from them and give it to people like me. What did you do to deserve that money? As much as people hate rich people not all of them just fall into money. A lot of people work for their money and lifestyle. Thats what Capitalism is. You find a way or something that you can offer to people that they want to spend money on and you Capitalize off of it. And you create your own life.

So When I see these kids / homeless looking people who have yet to contribute anything worthwhile to society (which if they had they would of made money) walking around and yelling about Stop Capitalism and we are the 99% all I see are these 99% of people who have just given up trying to make anything of themselves and just want shit handed out to them. And thats why this whole Occupy Wallstreet thing is at the most.....Cute.

My name is Christopher M. Carrigy and I approve this Message

Let's Take more personal Responsibility for our lives and not think that bitching and crying about shit is going to get anything done.

MY ALBUM

2011-08-21T23:35:00.002-04:00

I've posted this before but I digress..... you can download the album JUST FUCKING DESTROY at www.Elatefmusic.bandcamp.com

Boooooooooooooooooo!

2011-08-21T23:23:00.002-04:00

As you get older it's funny and interesting and depressing to see and find that so many people around you are just full of shit and in need of their own gratification. To make themselves look as if they are someone important and use that as their sign of self worth. I don't name names but it makes me think about how someone people can look at themselves in the mirror and go...:" alright this is good ".

Now im not talking about anyone who had done anything to me. No one has fucked me over to make me write this it's just a general observation. I find myself surrounded by people who either Make themselves into this fictional idea of what a musician or a " Rock Star " is or people that can't face reality and instead of going that way and building themselves up with bullshit self ego destroy themselves with alcohol and drugs to numb whatever feeling they have inside. No body is perfect and i got my own issues but I find this shit to be weak. I can't stand either or of what these people are and yet im stuck surrounded by it if I want to be in the same field of work. It's very disheartening.

Anyway .... Went out on the road a little bit with Ashes Within this past month to PA and Ohio. Fun times were had. To see photos and such of what happened go to www.Asheswithin.com

Electric City!!!!

2011-08-07T19:57:00.004-04:00

I do realize that my post on this thing are very few and in between so im going to make a promise to myself to at least post once a week about what musically im up to. I have a book that I keep a journal of shit but it's more for myself for when im an old man I can look back and read about what I did.

So This morning I just got back from Playing a show in Scranton with my band Ashes Within. ( I only have 3 projects....Ashes Within my main, Sadistic love box my other main...then my solo stuff under my own name ). We left brooklyn about 1:20 mainly cuz I was running late and I was supposed to be there by 1 the latest. 10 minutes to me is hardly that big of a deal but everyone was already packed up in the van and ready to go but me.. oooops.
The drive there was decent enough. There was def a lot of traffic trying to get out of the city and into jersey but it was def worth it for the jokes and the numerous put downs that were thrown at me.
Scranton seem like a nice little town of nothing to do. Some parts I saw where really nice and some places were a little desolate. But thats like any other city in the world i guess. I wouldn't be able to live in a town like that for two reasons... The bars close at 2am which is uncalled for and there is a lack of public transportation. As fucking shity it is and unreliable at moments I need the crapfest that is the MTA. There is nothing like leaving a bar at closing at 4 am wasted and getting on a train full of people who did the exact same shit you did that night stumbling all over. Women drunk trying to avoid the glares of the one creepy mexican guy who is just sitting there gawking at her. Homeless people passed out on benches smelling like fecal matter and sex fluids.

Got to check out the band Dual Diagnosis. They were really entertaining i enjoyed there set. The actual show didn't have a lot of people but enough there to get all the bands to do there thing. The torrential downpour that was coming down that day probally kept some people inside. plus there was some scranton jazz festival going on that weekend so all the bars had a bunch of artsy jazz bands playing.

over all it was a good time. I'd play scranton again

Nicki Minaj - Super Bass

2011-08-06T01:45:00.000-04:00

Love me some Nicki Minaj.

August 5th Just Destroy

2011-08-05T04:00:00.002-04:00

I got tired of waiting to release the Cd online. I don't have no deadline or anything so It was just a date that I picked in my mind because thats when the Finished Physical Copy would be in my hands. But sense Im still doing that n will have it for shows which I plan on doing for this stuff I decided why not post it online

So head over to Elatefmusic.bandcamp.com to download the whole album with 8 extra tracks that I added on for fun. Some Random things I have done, a Sadistic Love Box song, My friend Luis' rap song, an extra electronic track I had some friends party and record on. ITs a good time.

Happy Just Destroy day!

JUKING THE STATS by Christopher M. Carrigy

2011-07-28T00:21:00.000-04:00

Can't stop Won't stop

2011-07-26T17:54:00.003-04:00

Because im nut and my brain won't stop letting me me work on music. When im not working on ashes stuff im getting shit together for a good Sadistic Release and and maybe an acoustic ep under my own name. To many songs.... but... until then go to

www.steelheadentertainment.com/carrigy and listen to two tracks off my soon to be released album " Just Fucking Destroy "

- Cupc@ke

It's finally finished!!!!

2011-07-23T21:31:00.003-04:00

My album JUST FUCKING DESTROY is finally complete and on my computer. Thank god. its been well over a year and a half trying to get this thing done. Me and Luis Cambero of Tired Wings started rehearsing the songs maybe Feb / April of 2010. About a month after I got laid off from my Job. We were ready to record in August of 2010 but things got side tracked. Went from going to do it in one day at one place to recording it with my Trusty Drummer from Ashes Within Jeff " Hex " Harris. Im glad we did it with him.

We started in October and Tracked the Drums. After a week or two we went back to listen to the drum tracks and the computer had fucked up and lost them. We had to re-record the drums all over again. Through out this time Me and Hex we working on the Recording of Ashes Within's Full Length cd ( which also has been sidetracked ) so I didn't get to work on it much. After some Drama with our old singer we started looking for a new guy for about 2-3 months. Then it was getting that shit back into gear and working with him. During that time i worked on the album sparingly. I can say honestly through out that time if you count up all the hours of actual time we got to work on it....it only took about two weeks. But because Life is a bitch there was personal things I had to do besides Ashes work that led to this two weeks being spanned over a year and some Change.

But......A alas.... the album is complete. Right now im looking to have physical copies up on Aug 23rd. This way it gives me time to get what promo shit needed for the album done and out of the way. And plus if anything gets sidetracked again which seems to be the story of my Life it will be more than enough time for it to be Released.

Im planning in Late September to do a show or maybe two under the Moniker " Carrigy ". it will feature Two drummers, Two bass players, Key's and back up singers. This shall be interesting.

In other news the NEw Ashes EP will be done in two weeks and posted to give a taste of the full length which should be done late aug early september.

And in September I will be starting the full demoing and recording of a New Sadistic Love Box cd.

Wurd!

- Cupc@ke

Familiar Origins book trailer / Just Fucking Destroy LP

2011-05-30T21:34:00.000-04:00

I did some music book trailer my friend wrote. Check that shit out and pick up the book!

Secondly im in the mixing phase of Just Fucking Destroy. Im very happy with the material. It should be done in the next few weeks. Im kind of planning on writing one last instrumental keyboard filler track for the cd. I shall see how far with that I can get.

A instrumental collection of songs based on a dream I had is almost done. It is called The Broken Dream Chamber Vol. 1 : Fly Away Half Bird. I have to thank my friend Eimi for the fly away half bird part.

And im working on the Short story for Sadistic Love Box entitled " Goodnight my Sweet Girl ". It's another Tragic American Love Story.

Let us see if I can actually get that done soonish.

Aerosmith - I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing (Armageddon)

2011-04-28T22:27:00.000-04:00

Hans Zimmer in his studio - Part 1 & 2

2011-04-26T23:36:00.000-04:00

By far mine and the majority of movie music fans favorite composer. Mr. Hanz Zimmer

Hans Zimmer scoring The Dark Knight

2011-04-26T23:21:00.000-04:00

Heart of Darkness

2011-04-18T00:56:00.002-04:00

Waiting for the End of Summer
Waiting for that cold winter Death
to warm my Soul
Living my Life
With my Eyes Closed tight
If Ignorance is bliss
Then I Don't want to Know
Heading faster to my Grave
Won't Someone please
Reach out their Hand
Lacking Hope Faith & Love
this Relentless Cough will be my end
At the Heart of Darkness
I Feel at home
Don't you walk away
At the the Heart of Darkness
I feel at home
Don't you Talk to me....

- Christopher M. Carrigy

Dem the Breaks

2011-04-16T02:35:00.000-04:00

It's 2:30 on a friday night and im home infront of my Computer making notes on Ruff Mixes of Just Fucking Destroy. Exciting life I lead

Holy Shit does Rock Music Suck these past couple of years

2011-04-14T18:38:00.002-04:00

There really isn't anyone that is really doing anything special nowadays in rock music. Now there is a difference from what im talking about. Im not talking about "oh man things were better back in the day remember when blah blah blah came out with blah blah blah". The past is the Past i don't give a shit what anyone has done just about whats happening now. And that is nothing. Everything comes off to me as either really watered down shit to appease a sub genre of people (oh i have to stay true to my roots and my core fans ) or they go so far off the beaten path that they turn themselves into anything but a Rock band. I always find it funny when a band says "this is our experimental Phase/album" . Really? how are u experimenting with anything that hasn't already been done. A Good song is a Good Song is a Good Song. If you put weird noises and paning sounds over a shit song its still a shit song with noise on top of it that isn't necessary.

I guess everything comes in Waves. New Wave, Hair Metal, Grunge, Nu Metal, Metal Core, and now a bunch of indi assholes who pick up a guitar when in reality all they wana do is play some synth bullshit on a keyboard and show off to people with their weird sounds how introspective they are. if i hear one more person say that " This album was very Personal to me " or " I was in a bad place when i wrote that song " or " i had to hide and cut myself off from the world " im going to shit on their shoes. No one writes really good music when they are in a good mood dipshits. Boooooo to you. haha.

Im not saying that I know what to do or what songs are good for rock music but atleast i know what shouldn't be on tv and radio. and a prime example is this shit.

Really Ginger?? really? ( it took me about 10-15 minutes to find this i didn't know their name. had to search mtv for it...ugh )

Bazinga

2011-04-11T00:58:00.003-04:00

Worked on some songs that I haven't played in about three years. Played with some friends on them. Wasn't bad but I can honestly Say that I didn't miss it at all. I've grown out of these songs and they don't really mean that much to me anymore. There are always new songs and new things to work on so why go back in time. Nostalgia only goes so far.

so on to the future

Cannibal Corpse - "Make Them Suffer" Metal Blade Records

2011-04-07T22:17:00.000-04:00

Young the Giant - "My Body" (Official Video)

2011-04-07T22:15:00.000-04:00

hellogoodbye The Thought that Gives me the Creeps

2011-04-03T00:22:00.000-04:00

Wish I had wrote this song... so good

I Currently hav the hickups

2011-04-03T00:15:00.002-04:00

I haven't died.......yet. The Cd will be finished this month. I will be posting a Few Mixes of some of the songs online in the coming weeks. maybe two tracks to give u a taste of the Cd. There will be a lot of extra tracks on the Physical Copies of the Cd that are exclusive to that cd....one which will be the Sadistic Love Box Song " Rag Doll"

fixing up the Elatefmusic youtube page. check it out www.youtube.com/elatefmusic for some good shit. Some old Fetal Syndrome live Clips. A Video montage of Ashes Within Live from a week or so ago.

i leave you with this.... I Hickuped about 20 times typing this....

and i've had a bad cough cold for the last two weeks. FUCk it all ay?

Ashes Within - Sour Tounge

2011-03-17T04:01:00.000-04:00

The Dillinger Escape Plan - "Farewell, Mona Lisa" Season of Mist / Party...

2011-02-23T16:27:00.000-05:00

Weezer - Autopilot

2011-02-22T02:24:00.000-05:00

Britney Spears - Hold It Against Me

2011-02-21T23:45:00.001-05:00

Now she still looks very very very bangable. But compared to her last album which wasn't bad which confuses me to why everyone calls this her " Comeback ". She looks very stoned in the video. Sort of like she is on a lot of pain killers. and when she's dancing in the dark that totally looks like it could be a body double.

P.S I still will not buy a Sony computer and i think what looks odd is her eyebrows. They look to light

Delayss

2011-02-07T21:50:00.002-05:00

I might or might not be able to get the just destroy album done by March. but this is by my doing really. My band Ashes within is finishing up our full length and I should concentrate on that more right now so this solo cd will be going down on my pecking order. but i will try to get some more of it done. I don't have to much to finish some vocals that need redoing and some more bass-guitar tracks. The long process will be getting a decent mix done.

i have some acoustic versions of some of the songs i might release soon to the interwebs...

here is to hoping everything gets done so i can move onto the next cd

Five Years ( Premature )

2011-02-07T21:41:00.002-05:00

I want you to know
I'd rather be Miserable
Than let you see
That im
incomplete

Oh it's been so long
Since I could see
Though this Storm
Of Acid Rain
Blinding me from the Truth

And I don't know
when the change happened
I just don't feel the same
it's been five fucking years
since i've
felt like me again

Oh it's been so long
Since I could see
Though this Storm
Of Acid Rain
Blinding me from the Truth

I've been trying everyday
but nothing ever fucking goes my way
I've seen sunlight years ago
I don't see sunlight anymore

Oh it's been so long
Since I could see
Though this Storm
Of Acid Rain
Blinding me from the Truth

Bruce Springsteen - Ain't Good Enough For You

2011-01-20T19:40:00.000-05:00

Just Fucking Destroy Sampler 2011

2011-01-13T00:13:00.000-05:00

Sampler from the Just Fucking Destroy album

I Take The Wrong Pills

2011-01-10T01:25:00.002-05:00

I take the wrong pills
to keep the devil inside
to put me a drift
lost in a dream
stuck trying to grasp things
that don't really matter
I take the wrong pills
I take the right pills
I take pills
to keep the devil inside

Im going out of my mind

2010-12-30T17:27:00.002-05:00

Ok so this is the last week of December 2010. this whole year has been total shit for me for many reasons that are personal which I don't wish to get into on a fucking blog....but this is the real first week where im home and I don't have anything to get done musically. No band practice, no shows or practices with the band im filling in on bass( Tired Wings www.myspace.com/tiredwingsband ). No real sadistic love box work that needs to be done. I have like 4-5 new songs for that I can work on but they wont be recorded no where soon. My Just Fucking Destroy album is on my drummers hard drive and he is snowed in buffalo right now so I can't really do much work on that now can I.

Point is.....This is the first time in a long time that I am Bored out of my mind. I been home all week besides a few times going to stores and shit and with the snow storm its not that attractive the thought of walking around. Without something music wise My mind is going nuts. I have no idea what to do with myself. And tommorw is new years eve. Which have never been that fun for me. its a depressing time. I think this year i will drink myself silly. End this shity year with one hell of a fucking hang over.

Going away in a week or so to maine with some friends to snowmobile drink and jam in a cabin surrounded by snow. i so cant wait for that. and after that i will be finishing my Just fucking destroy album....and getting a 9-5 job :( a booooooo

The New Kanye album is aiiiiiiiiiiiittttttte

2010-12-27T21:14:00.003-05:00

That is all Have a happy Holidays or don't.... it doesn't matter right after Jan 1st its just another struggle to the next Holiday rights??!?!?!?

SADISTIC LOVE BOX THE ALBUM!!

2010-12-08T00:22:00.000-05:00

The Sadistic Love box album is now available for download. Physical Copies are printed as well. If you would like a Physical copy of the album we can set something up through paypal. Email Chris@sadisticlovebox.com

Open up your eyes.

2010-12-01T01:31:00.002-05:00

So the Sadistic Love Box cd is getting sent to me and should be here tommorw than I can put in the order for a bulk number of copies. It's kind of nerve racking and kind of not at the same time. I came a realization a long time about the sadistic love box songs. A lot of them are popish rock music which Im not known to do so to most people its a shock or crap. And Im aware I don't have the greatest singing voice in the world. And the thought might of gone through my head to have someone else do the vocals and I will just be the guitarist. But the fact of the matter is that these are my songs my feelings my emotions so I could care less if anyone else sounds better on it or not. They are mine and I own them.

Getting a lot of work on the Just Fucking Destroy album this month and hopefully can have it ready for 1-1-11.

Other than that everything else I feel like keeping under my cap. For what is a person who has no secrets.... fucking boring.

- Cupc@ke

Why bother, it's gunna hurt me!

2010-11-22T00:24:00.002-05:00

So the Sadistic cd as i mentioned in the last entry is done. We will be getting it printed this week hopefully. its a very Raw Acoustic cd with some extra added in.

Track listing is as follows

Poor Jill
Drifting Away
Please Stay
You Will Never Know
Don't Stop
When I Dream of you
4 the Kid
Am I lying to myself
Use me up (Stalk Much?)

Added bonus tracks
Tiger Stripes ( Christians Song )
Calmeh demo

Coming to iTunes or an inbox near you soon!

Im moving my music sites

2010-11-18T01:06:00.002-05:00

A friend of mine Owen from Demilita is part of this site called SteelHead Entertainment and their site layout is pretty fucking awesome. very neat and nice looking. Good sound player and its a site that has a lot of unsigned local bands from well u can be from anywhere but there is a lot of NYC based bands on their. So. I decided that my heavy music that im doing under my own name will be on their site. You will be able to stream most or maybe all the tracks from Just Fucking Destroy at the beginning of 2011. Im currently recording the album now and im sort of half way done musically but there is a lot of post production to be done.

I can realistically get it all done by mid december and printed if I rush. But this thing has taken so long i see no reason to rush it now. Plus I refuse to have this album come out in 2010. This whole album is a product of how much this year has sucked for me and it's sort of my lashing out. I can't have the back of the cd say 2010. plus i have a little thing where if something came out december 20th of 2010. if its jan 1st 2011.... it's already old in my eyes.

But! I have finished recording what is the Sadistic Love Box Acoustic Cd and that will be getting printed in a week or so. So thats exciting. Plus me and my partner in crime in that group Roberto Espinell will be putting together a full group to play some shows and get that music some exposure. We will also be doing some Acoustic sets around the city before hand to get are feet wet.

But I can't wait to get this Just Fucking Destroy album done. Then I will be starting on the Second Solo release entitled " Death of the American " which is a political Metal / Industrial album.

until them check out

http://steelheadentertainment.com/carrigy/

Rag Doll

2010-10-31T21:10:00.000-04:00

Youtube link to Rag doll. the sound quality is pretty low but it will do for now. I will update a high def version and maybe a little video for it. not sure yet

Heartbreak Warfare

2010-10-18T00:26:00.003-04:00

Been in such a creative mood lately. I get concepts in my head for albums and album titles and the stuff just comes out. I don't know how many songs i've written over the last couple of months. I banged out three new sadistic songs just with finally kicking myself in the ass to release an album of the stuff. This "Just Fucking Destroy " album has about 11 or so tracks. only about 3 interludes between actual songs. this album is going to be the death of me. Started recording....drums done.... went to get mixdowns of the drums... all the tracks were gone. This album was done in May. It is now October.... I won't rest till its done.

I have the next solo cd already thought out conceptually and title wise. its not going to be bass driven. More guitar driven i think and majority of it will entail a lot of screaming.

Both the JFD album and the sadistic album are on the cooker. Time is my enemy at the moment but it will be done. things get pushed back. time flies.... people die.... and shit happens.

Kill the Pain... Destroy the Ego... build your imagination.

- Cupcake

bum bum ba bummmmmm

2010-09-13T16:46:00.005-04:00

Ashes Within - In Silent Ruin ... Will be available at the listening party on October 2nd at Lucky 13's saloon in park slope Brooklyn Ny. The three song Ep is available for free while the Full length album will be blasting through the speakers.

Just Fucking Destroy is my first piece of music under my own name. The subject matter of the songs are topics that effect myself personally and things i dwell on over and over again. All guitars on this album will be done by bass. no guitars what so ever and half will be funk jam oriented songs. No replease date yet but will be known soon

Sadistic Love Box album is a product of having the material and the songs for years and not being able to have the money to finish the album. All guitars & vocals are done by Myself and the bass is performed by Roberto Espinell. We will be going around Nyc this fall performing this songs in an Acoustic setting but! will be putting together a few, full band live shows as time progresses. There is no release date for this yet.

I have no More respect for Led Zeppelin

2010-09-13T01:18:00.002-04:00

I have no respect for anyone that knowingly rips off other bands and gains success. Id say burn in hell but id have to believe in hell for that. Im not talking about being influenced by someone. That happens all the time.

Band B is influenced by Band A so band B sounds a little bit like Band A.

It's assholes like led zeppelin who lifts whole riffs.....whole melody lines....and lyrics off of old songs and trys to pass it off as if it is an original idea or new thought. Fuck that. There is no such thing as originality in the world of music. Im not trying to be original but im aware of everything i do in music and what i use. I am heavily influenced by Devin Townsend. A great song writer and Producer from Canada. I can come up with riffs that sound like they should of been B-sides from Devin. Shit i came up with a riff a few months ago and kept playing it over and over knowing if sounded familiar. It ended up being one of his vocal patterns played on the guitar. And that has sense been thrown the fuck out and won't be coming out in anything that i produce.
the thing that hurts me the most is when people pretend to be creative and they are just faking it cuz they know how to play a guitar or the drums or a bass. And people who don't know what they are doing just blindly fallow these people and give them credit and "props" for being oh so original.

I can see and i notice how someone reading this who isn't me can say " well doesn't he sound like a pretentious asshole." im not trying to be. as far as i remember all i've done since i was 5 years old was create. First it was art and drawing. until i hit my last year of highschool and i picked up a bass. Then i transferred what i wanted to express to music. To me they are both a double edged sword. You can totally create a drawing that expresses a certain moment in your life. A Certain feeling you can't express with just talking. That one picture like the saying goes can say a thousand words. But people can look at it totally cut off from emotion and not get it. but they can get what they want from it. which is what i liked but music to me is more impactful. You can make someone cry with just a 3-4 note progression. and when i realized that I was hooked. its open to interpretation.

Thats whats wrong with most musicians and bands. My theory is this. You don't write songs for other people. You write songs that effect you. If nobody gets anything out of the music i create than thats fine. I did. and thats what matters. Creating Music and Performing music is a personal experience that the artist should hold tightly to their heart. So when someone knowingly rips someone off to gain "stardom" or "profit" off of someones personal experience.... it fucking bothers me. but knowing that, that person knows inside who they really are makes it tolerable.

So in the end. they are talented musicians....but in the end.... fuck them

Cupcake out~!

Long Time no Blog

2010-09-08T01:20:00.002-04:00

Well its finally gunna happen. Im gearing up for two Albums being released this fall. My goal was only for the solo bass album. but things just like always kept getting in the way of recording it. things out of my control. The type of things that i hate the most. So now my solo recording of " Just Fucking Destroy " is being pushed back till sept 19th. and if something happens then .....then im hitting a bottle quick. but i know what is in my control. sadistic Love Box. And yes i know i couldnt do the full studio album because i dont have money for that but!!!!!! i can do my own acoustic recordings of the songs and put out an acoustic album. And since i was Told about this fancy company where its cheap as fuck. thats exactly what i am doing.

I have to put the final touch on poor jill and please stay vocally and record one new song that no one but Roberto has heard on the cd. which is my most i guess thinking outward track about the world is stead of being me me me. ;) practically all the artwork is done. just need to record roberto's bass to two more tracks do vocals and we are complete. Me and roberto will be embarking on a open mic tour i guess u can say playing acoustically around the city. trying to get anyone and everyone interested in Sadistic Love Box. and we will sell the cd ( probally give away if we cant sell any) for like 2-3 bucks. most likely give away. i rather at this juncture in time have people hear my music than profit from the few i sell.

But i am really looking forward to doing the bass album thing. I Think it encompanys the other side of my personality that you dont normally get to see in sadistic love box or when im playing metal bass. so there you go

Sadistic Love Box - The Offical Unoffical Acoustic album because I don't have enough money to finish my studio Album ... Album

and

Christopher M. Carrigy - Just Fucking Destroy.

coming this fall.

My back hurts

2010-08-22T17:21:00.002-04:00

As with everything i have delays in all musical aspects. fuckin hell. But today i was supposed to start recording my bass album. it didnt happen today but it will happen soon. hopefully. I've already started writing the second Cd. and well fuck.

ive also been working on something thats more on the artistic side. but we shall see how it comes out. fuck me

Alien w/o a Home

2010-08-05T18:00:00.003-04:00

Im getting together the rest of the material for the solo bass album. im going to have about 6 tracks that are all bass oriented but there will be space on the cd's left over. so since im spending my own money to print these out im going to be adding a bunch of different stuff that i ahve done in garage band and lil songs and some acoustic versions of the songs on the album. Right now im listening ot Alien without a home. Think of of as a song about an alien who is miles away from home and lands on a desolate planet and he is stranded due to a broken ship. Love that song.... its crap but i love it.

The name of the Album will be called : 3AM

I went thru different ideas for the title of the cd. some were silly some were serious but 3AM fits. Its the time of the day i like the most. The creative hour. when you think ur done and u need sleep......i always find myself creating something or recording something at this time.

Songs apearing on the album

Intro

Unbroken
WTFDAMMFKWIYM
Premature
Purple Death
Warm Sex
LJ
Just Destory ( this is were the album ends )

Bonus tracks
Soundscape
Am I Lying to myself
There's a Whore in your building ( From the sadistic love box Goodfellas EP )
Alien without a Home
Premature ( Acoustic Version )
Bad Character
You will never know ( Acoustic Version from Sadistic Love Box Head Games EP )
It's the Devils Music Bobby Boshay!

:) this makes me happy

Cupc@ke out!

Is this year over yet?

2010-08-02T23:48:00.002-04:00

Im getting sick n tired of this year so far.... soooooooooo fn done with it :)

Ok well my solo cd recording got pushed back but it is happening Aug 22nd. The turn around time for it should be the last week of September. There is no reason to procrastinate. Expecially since im doing it myself. There are some funny moments on this thing. Some angry moments, some fun moments, some dance moments. Even though im pretty much going to give it out for free im putting bonus shit on it. some outtakes maybe and acoustic guitar versions of a song or two on the album.

Ashes EP will be done this week too. Hopfully we will have a listening party for the whole cd in a few weeks.

Also im gathering up what material to use for a Sadistic Love box acoustic show or two. I have alot of ideas that i can flesh out into some fun songs.

that is all

Lock the doors....they're Here now.... Bring the Lights Down

2010-06-25T02:30:00.001-04:00

I got the guy from Up! tattooed on me. thats all i got for now. lots to say but not the time nor the place

- Cupcake

From the sadistic love box Page.

2010-06-15T03:37:00.002-04:00

This will prob be my only blog post for june. I am like depressing myself right now. I have all the material for the full length album. And no way of finishing it. Im going to go get all my shit backed up on my own hard drive and hold onto the recordings for a bit. I have compiled the 40 minutes of my " Playground " album. Hopefully someone will get to hear it one day. It makes me sick to my stomach that i've had this stuff for 3 years underraps. the Track listing right now as I have it.

Poor Jill
Kristen Open the Door
You will Never Know
Please Stay
When I Dream of You
Tiger Stripes
Drifting Away
Dark Candy
Just One of those things
Calmeh

It is pretty Much 40 Minutes of Heartbreak. and I dig it.

And I had handed a cd of the stuff to this engineer to listen to and give me pointers which i didnt get. so if i hear anything from my stuff out there. please be sure i will be on a warpath and there will be blood spilled

- Cupcake

myspace.com/carrigy
carrigy.net

June

2010-06-15T01:42:00.002-04:00

The Pre-Production for the solo outfit has been almost completed. I got maybe 1 -2 more practices coming up until I lay down all the recordings. I got 3 songs that will have vocals on it and maybe 2-3 more tracks that will prob be just instrumental. have a lot of work coming up but it will all come out good in the end. There surprisingly is a lot of screaming going on in it. I didn't expect it but thats the way they are taking form naturally.

There is a lil sampler of demos on my new myspage page that was created to showcase the different projects I am and have worked on. Myspace.com/carrigy that is where u will find a sample of everything.

you just wait.......

- Cupc@ke

Its MAy!

2010-05-02T23:15:00.003-04:00

This is going to be a pretty busy month for me. Working on a new project which shouldn't take too long to be put together. It is called Cupcake - " JUST(FUCKING)DESTORY ". This is going to an all bass album. I have some songs that i had the urge to put together and record. This will be getting printed up and will be the first second offical release from my production group Emordnys Latef Music. First one being my old band's cd FETAL SYNDROME - My Perfect Child.

Soon after that I should be putting together a cover album by sadistic love box which will be mainly acoustic and at some point the full Playground CD. I will die to finish that cd. Im going to add on two songs that weren't on it before " Calmeh" n "Drifting Away "

Second im happy that we finally finished recording and almost done mixing the Ashes Within debut which should be done soon. Im starting to work on the art for it now gather ideas. Def a good cd. proud of it.

Third is i contributed some bass playing to the new My uncle the Wolf Cd " Flush " Which should be released May 28th from what i've been told. Im Proud to be on this album. Didn't do any of the writing but go to lay down some bass and there is a tinge of me there.

Cupc@ke

bomb

2010-04-13T20:28:00.001-04:00

dopin!

Milano

2010-04-13T00:03:00.003-04:00

The next music i will be producing soon will bring Beauty and Ugliness to the world. Cause That's all that matters right? My brain decided on taking a break from the writing process for a lil but I feel a storm coming. And with that inspiration. On what side of the storm i will land i don't know. Im to much of the type of person that wants to do everything and anything. I just finished producing my first ever rap song which was interesting. Ima probally finish up on that tonight after im done writing this shit. Im not raping though...don't worry.

How is it possible to feel complete and have a void at the same time. That i will never figure out. but im never satisfied or content with what I do. all I know is that after recent things that has happened in my life I refuse to be in another persons band. I need to do my own thing. And i refuse to let anyone tell that im not capable of doing anything. When ever someone says something like that u can just smell the utter bullshit flowing out of their mouths.

I've been practcing a bit singing in a lower register and surprise-n-ly it is coming along quicker than I thought. This will enable to write and record differently. Plus been looking forward to recording some straight up bass tracks. Gunna get a drummer. sit in a room and jam out for a few hours and cut up a cd. I don't get to do funk pop slap shit at all in any of the bands i was in besides Fetal Syndrome and even then it wasn't enough to make me content.

all in all........ what im feeling right now is that musically i do not have an identity. And I find a bit of Happiness in that.

Im just a fuckin Cupc@ke.

Caralho Voador

2010-03-24T22:54:00.002-04:00

So I am not long in One of the bands I was previously in. Wolf. Im not going to get into that right now cause there is no point. Ashes i just finished all my bass tracks for the Cd. which its comming out pretty cool. But im thinking of turning my Sadistic Love Box project into a full band thing. Going back n forth with someone who wants me to do something else but I don't feel like going back into the past. And this other thing yes it can be changed but it wont be what i want. SLB has more of the ability to be anything n everything. I wana be able to do a song that sounds like faith no more, next to a song that sounds like fall out boy to korn to whatever the fuck i want. Im getting tired of being in just metal bands. im in a metal band....i dont need another one.

push!

Cupc@ke!

The reasons I don't sleep

2010-03-08T01:30:00.002-05:00

Ever since I recently got laid off about a lil over a month ago. I started to slip back into that old pattern of not sleeping. And not because I want to stay up but mainly cause i have a problem sleeping. I start to tred off thinking about certain things, certain girls , certain projects I want to start. I have so many goals that I want to accomplish. I have the time and yet I know and feel I have the drive but I can't seem to get it out at the moment. It comes in spirts.

I play Music. Im not a metal head....im not an indi rocker....im not a hip hoper , a pop fan nor am i a hard rocker. I do music that I feel. I spent so many years writing heavy aggressive music that at the moment I feel like I don't know if I have it in me anymore. Yet I also find myself reaching for that outlit to scream my head off till my throat pops out of my body and lays before me in a bloddy mess. I have spent the last year writing alot of acoustic based music that is straight up on the pop side but yet now i find myself kinda getting sick of it. I write a song based on something , feeling , girl, record the demos to the point im i can live with listening to it wether its perfect or not and then Im done with that feeling. I don't feel like i have yet reached that perfect medium inbetween the two feelings. I have two different sources of music fighting in my head at all times.

I have alot of other goals i wana be able to complete. At some point i would love to compose a score to a movie or two. I wana have solo albums that range from styles like johnny cash to manson (good music ). I wana be apart of both my bands and fight the good fight and take over the world. I want to actually write the screen play i been mulling with over the last 5 years. Finish the short story that I have stored on this blog that I have no idea where to take it.

These are the reasons why I don't sleep....

Cupc@ke

This used to be a Fun House...

2010-02-28T22:58:00.002-05:00

Might be doing some acoustic shows sometime in the near future. I started practicing playing and singing my songs at the same time a long time ago so im almost fool proof. The only thing that sucks is that my bronchitis acts up and im coughing alot. and when i try to get raspy sounding my throat tickles or hurts or something and i cough. sunofabitch.

I also been working on this song called "Zooey" which i made go into a totally different direction than first thought. Ima try to work it out with a drummer in a few days. Its getting tireing not being able to always hear the beat behind me when working on this material.

Im also thinking of doing a show just me and a drummer. or me roberto and a drummer. a trio. even though when i first did the sadistic shows i wanted a full band. I want guitar , bass, drums, keyboards (girl who does backups) n me on guitar and vocals. I have it all planned out in my head.

These with the two main bands are going good. one im waiting for a mix to be done the other we working on shows and merch. and a possible week tour of the east coast.

its nice....

but im still not happy

Cupc@ke!

Lost! the show....or life.......ohhhhhhhhhhh

2010-02-12T17:24:00.002-05:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BcfDxq8Zw5A

Ofcourse im not going to talk about the show on this thing. This is about how recently I've been home sick for about a week. And it gave me alot of time to think and i was thinking about this for two weeks before but now ive had time with my thoughts. which i always feel is a bad thing. I mean who seriously wants to be alone with their thoughts. But what im getting at is one thing. I am totally happy with how my music carrerr at the moment is going. totally. Im in two great bands now instead of just Fetal Syndrome which was my first band. Both are two totally seperate outlits that help me get out two different feelings and sides to my mind. But the problem is i don't have that direct outlet anymore. I have sadistic love box but thats not a band is just a project that i do to do my acoustic style shit. But the manic fucking out of my head part isn't getting enough attention. And in no way does that mean that im going back into doing Fetal but there is def a part thats a bit missing.''

In fetal i had more control. which is probally what i miss. the control part. which is why i like the two bands im in cause i dont have control. its a democracy. but damn do i miss the dictatorship hahaha. al in all my brain is just as mixed up as it ever has been. which is cool to realize. just when i thought i was becoming "Normal". But yah. ima keep doing whats making me happy at the moment which is these two lovley bands and keep my mind on the prize. a flat screen tv......shit i already got one. well then how does a house full of strippers and coke sound?

Cupcake

My favorite song at the moment. Devin Townsend " Bad Devil "

Calmeh Progress Report : .02

2010-02-07T16:01:00.002-05:00

Ok . well i still havent gotten to start the recording of this song. i could do a medio-ookarrrr version on garage band but thats what i have right now as the demo. I need to be start it soon though before i lose it. But the fact that i have had to push it back ive gotten a better idea of what i want to do with the vocals and maybe some other lil background guitar parts.

Besides that I recorded a good version on garage band of this song called Drifting Away. Both songs are about the same person but two different aspects of emotion for the same person. I find it an interesting contrast. Im really really happy with the song. and i decided to add it onto the "Too many Jelly Beans" Ep. Even though its not fully acoustic. So therefore the whole just being acoustic idea is out the door. I sang the song pretty much onpoint. but i left the autotune on purly for the fact that the demo i did for the song i had the autotune on and when i did it without it didnt quite feel like the same song. Even though this version is pretty different. has a whole middle section and....Drums.

Than there is Rag Doll. Which will also be added onto the cd. Its about falling in love with a whore/prositute. And unlike the other two songs i sang in a lower register. I dont always sing so pussy like but i do what i feel is best for the song.

Rag Doll ( demo version w/ lui's rap and better mix) is up on the myspace right now myspace.com/sadisticloveboxband
and im putting driffing away up soon.

Cupc@ke

Calmeh Progress Report : .01

2010-01-19T01:01:00.002-05:00

So i finally finished the demo for this song i started about a year ago while i was depressed about the girl who drives me musically right now. my muse you could say. and well i had some inspiration and finished lyrics and I am going to record a decent demo of it to hopfully sell. I give you the first progress report on the song in many to come. hopfully i will have pictures of recording time and what not and cool shit. Here are the lyrics

Another night
Everything inside me
wants to
Show you the real me

Another time
That I am sorry
I never told you
you’re the only one to

Calm me
your everything that I could
Ever
Want and I don’t need
you to say
those words that don’t mean
Nothing to me
anymore……..
You will never really….. Love me
But I try
I wana forget you
I wana to forget that you exist
but nothing ever works in time
these pills just fuck up my mind
when all I wana do is sleep
but the truth is that

I love you
your everything that I could
ever
Want and I don’t need you
to say
those words that don’t mean
nothing to me
Anymore

Sweet eyes I stumble and fall in love and out again when you don’t call me
your pushing me away, one day I’ll walk away from
My dear I love you so much it hurts when you don’t come over
I want to hug you and touch you and show you that everything will be ok , when I have you in my arms one day.

There’s nothing More
That I can say
IF I never heard your voice again I could get away
But I keep coming back to you

ALT VERSION
Its in your eyes
but I have nothing else to say
it’s the only reason why I can’t walk away
its why I keep coming back to you…..

Calm me
your everything that I could
Ever
Want and I don’t need
you to say
those words that don’t mean
Nothing to me
anymore…….
You will never really love me…..
but I try……

Dexter has cancer.....Hati fell apart

2010-01-17T20:42:00.003-05:00

The subject isnt there to make fun of this stuff but just to show what was going on when I wrote this blog.

So I can't help it but i always feel like i need a change in my life. What can ya do. right? fuck it. Anyway I had some inspiration from my normal day to day life and finished a song i started writing about a year ago. Its called Calmeh. Im really happy with this song and kinda sad at the same time cause its all personal stuff and doesn't have the best outcome to it i guess. But no outcome is final huh. So im going to try and re do the demo to get it decent enough to show to someone who could possibly help me get it out there. My goal with the song cause i know i dodnt have the greatest voice and not the greatest image is to sell it to someone who can. And get it on the radio. Thats all i really want. Is to make music that connects to people and get it out there. but then again thats all l anyone really wants.

God my mind is all over the place cause of this song. I want to work on it right now right this minute but i know i cant. I don't have the shit yet to get a good recording done. Garage band can only go so far. Asked a friend to help me get a beat down for the song so hopefully this week i can do some work on it.....

I want to work on the song now that its fresh in my head and heart. Then I can get it out and get over that feeling.

so yeah..... thats all i am thinking about at the moment. And how to rectify the situation of that song. haha. My will and persistance doesn't die out so easily anymore

Fuck new passwords..........

2009-12-27T19:22:00.001-05:00

(this is from the sadistic love box myspace page. i was gunna elaborate and talk about more on here but it took me forever to get a new password for this shit. so im tired and drained mentally for the moment. )

Christmas is here!!!!!

So for this christmas i decided that i wasn't going to be buying people gifts cause well im pretty much broke. if i had money it would be going into finishing my playground album. which seems sooooo far away from getting done. So i did what i do best. I did some home recordings.

You will notice thre are two tracks up on the page Jingle Bells and baby its cold outside( sun by the lovly lui ). For christmas maybe it was vain but i recorded myself and a couple of friends lui and julio over some christmas kareoke tracks and sent it out to friends. its brought by my Music imprint label ?/? idont know what it is tech. Emordnys Latef Music. Which everything i do will be under with association with Sadistic Love box. Sooooo thats what has happened. Christmas cupcakes for everyone. If you or anyone would like a copy leave a comment or get to me with an email address and it will be in ur inbox as soon as i get it. until i actually set it up on a yousend it or another one of those sites for free download.

now i know in an earlyer post i said that i was going to be doing a winter album going punk for the winter. which i was gunna turn those sadistic tunes into more upbeat songs. but i have decided against it. i been thinking for awhile and i love doing all different types of music not just metal not just straight rock, blues, funk, hip hop etc. So its still going to be in the vain of punk but we are doing something a lil diff.

I was very influenced musically in high school by at the drive in. if you know who they you know what im talking about.....if not....go listen to relationship. its an awesome album. i cant get this shit out of my system. so instead of siting here letting it eat me up inside ive got some people in the bands im in to do a lil project. it is not a band. and it is not going to be serious or take up my time. its going to be stictly...hey i have time to kiill you too?? cool lets do it. So its going to be a recording project. An EP will be recorded. how long it takes im not going to give a def answer. its strickely when i have time away from Ashes within and My uncle the wolf (the two bands im in) i will be working on it. Its a post hardcore/punk/expeirmental project....with no real title yet.
but im def going to try and make it seem as interesting and good as possible. i will refrain from writing the majority of the music just so i can concentrate on producing it and doing vocals. And this is not going to be metal at all. and not hard rock like sadistic. if it was gunna sound like either it might as well not happen :)

The project for now as a working title will go under " My Scream Box "
players are
Luis Santana
Miguel de Jesus
Lil Lui
Roberto Espinell
Christopher M. Carrigy

IF u read this whole thing. Awesome. and thanks
Enjoy ur moements in this life
Cupcake

NEw ?

2009-11-26T18:35:00.002-05:00

I feel stuck and lost. I feel like i am not mentally mature enough to write the music i want. i have so many desires for different sounds and getting it out but im stuck. and i know if i force it its gunna come out like shit. and i thought i havent written enough music to be blocked like this but then i forget.

* = Not finished Musically. Some sadistic stuff doesn't have vocals but i consider the song done musically to be the most important thing.

Fetal Syndrome

Just want you dead
whore
nothing sacred
urethra
social interaction
rape something
dead faith
hope nipple
your mothers a man
gods unwanted children
exotic fire lady
My Perfect Child ( What the Fuck )
In-sex ( mainly vocals )
Druidia ( just vocals )
My Last Breathe (noise - vocal track )

Sadistic Love Box

You will Never Know
Tigger Stripes ( Chrystians Song )
Let it go!
Poor Jill
Please Stay
Black October
Dark Candy
When I Dream of you
Kristen Open the Door
Anti- Biotics
She Doesn't Understand (working title also known as addicted to luv) *
Calmeh *
Drifting Away *
Lying to myself
Zoey*
Dr. Drake Ramoray*
Punky Dev *

So I have written 32 songs in the time that i have been really playing music which is about 4 years. That is not enough. and plus considering that the stard songs aren't finished yet. Maybe i should finish those haha but i still have alot i want to get out that don't fit those songs. plus im not encluding the things ive done with ashes within cause i only started recently contributing to riffs cause i was tapped out heavy music wise and, im not including the small music or goof off shit i do for fun with garage band. but trust me there is alot. ugh. This is why i hate holidays. I still obsess on this shit. even if i had a girlfriend at the moment i would probally still be thinking about this constantly in the back of my head. but thats just the way that i am. Its the nature of the fn beast. lets just hope it gets me somwhere,

idk. what did you write about?

2009-11-17T22:29:00.002-05:00

(EDIT NOTE : I don't care to spell check. Can you count all my mistakes) Enjoy!

It always takes me a few trys to actually get into this block cause i never remember what varyation of my favorite password i used for this shit. But alas I made it. and I have a few things to talk about. Janelle monae, John Mayer, and When your too much into a scene.

I just saw Janelle Monae Perform at a tapping of a radio show. The topic of it was bout time travel. And if time travel could actually exist and if so how would it be possible. But more than anything it was entertaining not some boring ass show with people who think it can really happen so much that they go nutz. There was a scientist and a woman who writes novels about time travel. In and out of what would of been the commercial Breaks Jannelle's backing band perform 2 minute instrumentals. Oh my god i could fall in love with that girl. She is an amazing singer. She did two songs off of one of her ep's and then did this new track called "come Alive". Her voice sounds amazing on this track and live she is screaming her head off. Which is different cause she sings majority of the time.
At the end of the song she sorta freaks out a bit and dances all over the place (which she normally does) and then she proceeds to take her mic stand. Raise it above her head and throw it down at the stage. The shit broke into two places and went flying at the knees of some audience members. it was FUCKING AWESOME. I actually wished that I was the one who got hit from the mic stand cause she came out again to perform another new song and hugged all of them. So cute....so talented and so weird...fucking amazing woman..

John Mayers Concert is on fuse. I loved his last album but something about the way this concert sounds and the way the new songs sound like ehhh i dont know. ima proba still end up buying it. He is def talking way to much during the concert and almost trying to sound like he is a martyr for his music. ehhhhh i have a feeling i might be loosing interest in him. But "Continuum" Was still an awesome album. I don't know could be just the way the live feed is comming threw the tv. He still talks way to fucking much for my taste. But alas i will buy his new album and probally really dig it.

Ok my last reason for babbling. (this blog actually took over an hour to put together cause i kept walking away from the computer and getting distracted). I don't understand how people can get them self stuck into a scene of music and pin point that this is what i am. This is my whole exisitance is I am a piece of this culture. No dis-respect to anyone but I can't understand how you can just call yourself punk or call urself metal or call ur self a hipster douche bag. I don't refer to myself as a metal head. Do i hang out in metal bars....maybe yes.....do i listen to metal...yes....do i wear metal t-shirts......yes. But I wont say to anyone that i am a metal head. I dont listen to just metal. Today for instance i was talking the train and i have been listening to the new album Addicted by Devin Townsend (see last post) But right after I heard this song thats pretty heavy and epic i went on my ipod to Jason Mraz and listened to the song "Im Yours". I have purchased not only the last Justin Timberlake album but also the last Kelly Clarkson album. I enjoy all types of music and will listen to all types of music threw out my day and life.
When I was on the train I saw this kid. Probally like 22 maybe....maybe even not in his 20's. maybe he was just old looking for his age and he was 16. But I noticed him because he was in the total metal uniform. Long black baggy pants with suspenders going from leg to leg, wearing a misfits shirt long sleeve black shirt , semi long hair with a bullshit mustashe looking he was pissed at the world and he just couldn't wait to take his anger out on the next person on the train who looked at him funny. So then i look at myself and i have on a buttondown shirt, a joker beanie from the dark night movie, under the button down a gwar shirt, and an icp hoodie. And i think to myself. If he looked over at me he would totally think that atleast me and him on this train had a common bond. just from the clothes we were wearing.....flying the freak ima weird guy flag. But ohhhh only if he knew i was hmming to a Jason Mraz song about falling in love with the perfect woman.
And as i look at him even more im thinking to myself. When do you get so deep into your "scene" of music that you become a parody of yourself. You no longer have individuality you are METAL , or you are PUNK.
I can not fucking stand that. I never wanted to be a person who define-able. And I stive to say that to everyone i meet. Do not be perdictable. Don't just act a certain way cause thats what people expect of you. Be your fucking self. If something isn't punk or isn't metal so fucking what. Its real and thats all that matters. Sometimes i feel like i can do whatever the fuck i want. Sometimes i feel uber confident. Sometimes i feel like just crawling into a dark hole sometimes and waiting there until I feel comfortable enough to crawl out after I look to the left and right and see it is all clear. Maybe its not the best way to be sometimes....but sometimes that doesn't matter. its real. my point which i think i got to far away from. but i shall leave that tangent in there is that when you live your music scene you ultimatly end up a parody of yourself. and in some cases....thats the saddest thing i've ever heard....

Ok thats all i got for now. after i start recording in two weeks i'll have more to say and some photos. maybe even a video or two. who knows!!!!! its crazy!!!!!

- Cupcake

eh

2009-11-14T20:18:00.001-05:00

I feel like im fighting with myself to Survive.
The smoke fills my lungs
the

All the worlds a Stage and We are Home Again.....Home Again

2009-11-12T23:50:00.002-05:00

So inspired right now. Just got my new Devin Townsend album in the mail. Fn Awesome. Im always surprised by something that he does on every album. Im gunna have to go to bed right now for work in the morning. But i totally would be down in downing a monster and working on some music right now.

Defffff give this a few listen toooos..

i dont know what else to say. damnnnn i need to redo my vocals for the cover song i did on his stuff.

- cupcake out! newer blog tommrow during the day

So cold in the Night......Where the River Flows

2009-11-09T21:24:00.002-05:00

So I got some recording done finally on my acoustic ep that i been wanting to start. ima prob have like 2 originals and 4 covers. Got to do HyperDrive by Devin Townsend off his ziltoid album. Theres no way i can do it as good as him but i can do my own version. Right now all i have is straight acoustic and vocals. its missin alot of background music that ima add.

getting ready to record with W so i will be busy with that. And playing shows with Ashes...plus doing cover songs for a show with the Fetals so this is just for time time time off from all of that. I like filling my spare time with stuff like this cause if clouds you from actually thinking about real life. and who would want to do that if they could avoid it. real life sucks. not personally alot for me but in a general sense. things are actually pretty good for me right now but i cant and wont jump into that stuff right now. just getting ready for my punk and acoustic eps. plus actually burning coppies of the head games ep i did two years ago. and starting to actually promote sadisitc as the full length " Playground " album sits on the back burner at Sweet Fire.

I leave you with this.

" I WANT SOMETHING GOOD TO DIE FOR......TO MAKE IT BEAUTIFUL TO LIVE "

Tropical Storms and Sun Showers

2009-09-25T00:08:00.002-04:00

The title of this blog would be a pretty cool album title or song title. Im still not done with anything. I thought id have something done by now but nothing. to busy doing to many things. I would just work on one thing at once but I don't think my brain is capable of that. Even right now as i typed out that sentence i was thinking about just how i wana do more art and put it up in a show again. im never gunna be able to stop. i wana do some more fucked up dark shit. like babies dying type of art. shit that would scare a nine year old if they look at it. that would be awesome.

So yeah;. i should really have some progress with my acoustic cover cd in the next two weeks. im planning on having two orginals on it.. one is called " Drifting away my baby " which is on my sadistic love box myspace right now. a demo version atleast. with only once verse. and another song which will be fun about a ninfo girl who likes to fuck.

I had more to say but i keep getting distracted and walking away from the comp. so i will leave you with some goals i have.

1. to tour the world
2. to write a song that makes people cry when they hear it
3. to have atleast 3 solo albums out on a major label
and
4. To score a movie.

cupcake out

Worst Dream Ever..........

2009-07-18T11:57:00.004-04:00

I dreamed last night that i broke my ipod. not just broke but destroyed it. sooooo horrible. I was standing by my dinning room table and my ipod poped out of my hand fell onto the table bounced off and onto the floor. the screen was cracked into a thousand peices, the back had pop'd off the front and it looked kinda burnt. Don't ask . And i opened it up and the battery was made out of liquid in a pouch. made perfect sense to me in the dream.

I totally blame this on not drinking enough last night :)

cupcake out!

A Recent update. muuuuuuuhahahahahahahaha

2009-07-13T22:04:00.002-04:00

So I know i have alot of shit to talk about but thinking about it i don't think i want everyone to know everything in my life. Just know this. Ashes within is doing gooooood. Had an awesome first show in two weeks and we fucking destroyed it. bodies bodies and more bodies. It was really nice to get some well needed aggression out and rip the skin off of my fingers with my bass. I had this really nice blood blister that was like a quater inch off my finger poping out. I cut it open after a night of interesting events and drained the shit out of it.
I played my first show With My uncle the wolf which was fun. it was at like 2 in the afternoon on a saturday so we played to the other bands there but it was pretty fucking fun. def drank alot that day. Two jack and coke doubles a regular jack and coke and a shot of jose at the show and then a texas sized marragrita at bbq's.

So I still have yet to finish my album " Playground". I still need about 2-3 more days in the studio to finish the music and vocals. which doesnt include the mixing or mastering. just those 3 days alone will cost me about 2 grand. Which i dont have at the moment. Im also almost ready to record an acoustic ep with my drummer. just have to sit down one day and get all the material together and get the covers down.

I've also decided to try producing. Not that i know anything about producing but i rather learn by trial and error and i dont see that i would have a problem helping someone craft a song. My first guinea pig will be this girl i know. She's got an interesting voice and i liked this little song she wrote about being a liar. it sounds fun. She also wants to cover one of my songs so that would be interesting hearing someone else sing something I wrote cause thats what i ultimatly plan on doing with these songs.

I just like everyone have been listening to alot of Michael Jackson since his death. and the one thing that im addicted to is the fucking production on his music. Its fucking pounding. im actually intersted in trying to add some sound like that into new music. Some more dance elctronic than rock/metal. I had already planned on it with this project im trying to get done by the fall. I guess im really trying to keep my brain busy. ITs really the only thing in my life i can count on. haha right now im listening to rock my world....woooooooo! that just happened!
The project is called 3x3. Three EP's with 3 styles of music with 3 songs eatch. One is Electronic and its called "Get your fucking Shine Box!" . Believe it or not but im going to write a 3 song concept album on the movie Goodfellas. The second is supposed to be a Hard rock ep and the third is a Screamo total insanity collection. to let out my skitsoo side.

Hopfully this year i can have alot to show for it. I sorta felt like a waste with fetal last year. I kept trying to get us all to go record and get something to show for it but everyone had different reasons on why. and lets not rush into it. lets wait till after christmass, lets do this. When it comes down to it i really feel that i can only trust myself to get shit done and do it right. actually not right....right or wrong doesnt exist with music but i can do what I want and not have to deal with other peoples pre concieved notions on what something "should" or "shouldn't" do. I've actually created more music that no one has heard but me. and most of if might show signs of someone going nutz (hahaha) but it makes sense to me. I've also learned alot to just write from the heart so from now on. someone ask me what something is about if its about them i will tell them. its their job to figure out how to react to it. i just create it and let it go. cause i think thats really the only way i can truly express myself. im usually not good with words....not good with showing certain sides. but sometimes i cant help it with some people and that shit comes out anyway. but with this music i can be specific to what i need to let people know. haha ok i rambled and i cant totally remember everything i said but thats fine. it stays cause it's what i wrote.

cupcake out!

Babies are born, in the same building people go to pass away....

2009-06-21T23:43:00.003-04:00

I been busy. Don;t know what else to put. Im still not done with my sadistic love box shit. And it seems like all i have is time to do it but not the funds. Thats my main problem. I have so many things that i want to get done but have lil minor road blocks infront of me and too many stay away signs.

Personal shit also gets in the way of that but it also fuels the fire. so idk really.
still feel numb. out of place and lost.

NICE@!

Songs that inspire me for a new projecty

2009-03-03T00:21:00.000-05:00

first i wana say.....why are the veronicas still famous. does anyone really listen to them?

ok here is the stuff that im going for in the vein of with these three songs. I want to make extremely dark heavy shit. without being metal. and sort of gothic but without that fucking goth look/industrial shit. just pure music that if u had the lights off when u heard it you would get a cold sweat goin

Jonathan davis- Carless (from the queen of the damed soundtrack but it was cut )
.

Sleepytime Gorilla Museum - The Companions ( from in glorious times )

NiN - The Great Destroyer

dumb bitch

2009-02-22T23:12:00.000-05:00

I can't stand queen latifah. Fucking big bitch. get off my tv!!

so......I'VE

2009-02-17T00:22:00.002-05:00

BEEN updating this thing alot latley with just random bullshit. ok.......

So after listening to the songs that i worked on over the weekend i've decided that when i go back to the studio im going to make one of the songs even more fucking epic sounding. it feels soooo fucking powerful when the chorus repeats the second time that i need to add extra percussion to just blow that motherfucker out of the speakers. I also need to have roberto tighten up some basslines and redo a whole song cause the tracks got lost (which i have yet to tell him yet) and I need to finish two more songs. adding on some guitar parts and building drums with a drum machine for the other.

I also for some reason have a brand new song to work on. Its the wedding song to me. Its completly different than the rest and it reminds me of apologize by that band.....the name escapes me. they have timberland do the remix. but it doesnt sound like it only it gives me that feel and the music i wrote is alot more depressing. I fucked around and came up with this great vocal melody for the chorus only problem is that i have the chorus and the pre chorus/verse and nothing else yet. i even just messed around and put that t-pain effect on my vocals. which im considering keeping.

I've also contemplated disappearing for awhile. just keeping a really low profile. Work practice and the occasional hang out. Not for any other reason than to just do it.....and the money I will save from it. Its alot cheaper to buy a bottle of jack then spending it in a bar standing there bullshiting with people and paying 12 bucks for a double. not that i mind.....but i need to save my money badly. Then again it is just a thought.

I wish there was a way i could put the song up on here ( the tpain demo) but i doubt there is a way. and i dont wana throw it up on my bands myspace cause its just not ready. i want it to atleast have a decent amount of it done. its nice. piano and strings. probally wont have drums. if it does im totally going jt drum machines for this one.

Gotta go lilley allen is about to perform on leno

I luv Lilly Allen

2009-02-15T23:16:00.002-05:00

damn................

Anyways So now after spending more time working on my songs with Mike it is even more clear to me that I want out of the life I have right now. Fucking working. The only thing that i get from it is money to spend time recording. Right now im listening to something I just started writing at home. Like half an hour ago. and even now i want to go to the studio and try and flesh it out with Mike. I cant help but write all this semi depressing shit. All my songs are about Love bassically and the strive to obtain it but always having something get in the way. Then there is the whole aspect. you can have this but you can never dare obtain this aspect to the music. Its fun. Tire-ing but fun.

I wish that people could hear this stuff and whats in my head for the rest of it that i have to record but its not time yet
Im not particulary sure ima let friends get copies of the songs. I will play them what they worked on and then thats it. no copies
only my ipod. nuthing more. except for a teaster online.

right now theonly thing that i have put up or "released" is my lil musical piece "When I dream of you" which is up on the sadistic love box myspace.

www.myspace.com/sadisticloveboxband

im also considering getting rid of my personal myspace page. only go threw my music page.

"I gave you everything, all the pain life brings, jus to get you to come back to me"

2009-02-13T00:17:00.002-05:00

I want so much to type and type and type what i have in my head and heart right now.
but i cant.
maybe im stoping myself.
maying its the nyquil pills i took an hour ago.

whatever it is.

peace~!

I Love Natalie Portman

2009-02-11T23:12:00.003-05:00

I got the Lonely island album today. Im soooooo gad that they decided to put the natalie portman rap on the cd. God it makes her a thousand times more hot listening to that rap. but ofcourse we can not forget

I'm ON A BOAT feat. T-PAIN

IM ON A FUCKING BOAT BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its just nice to hear a musical comedy album thats actually funny. Weird al gets old after the 80's and its just sad listening to him try and do a parody of songs that are out today. All he has is food refrences. God i feel so fucking tired. im getting a fucking cold and just took two nyquils about 20 minutes ago. i probally wont make it to practice or work tommarow. I wanted to take off today but i knew that a coworker was taking a half day so i didnt want to do that to her. holy shit they are playing footage from something. what the fuck happened in iowa.

Anyway so it seems that chris brown layed the smackdown on rihanna. ahahah. that was awful. that motherfucker is gunna get killed. fucking dumb dumb dumb kid.

..........I've lost the urge to keep typing.

Dead Memories in my Heart........

2009-02-09T23:48:00.002-05:00

So last thursday I wento to see SLipknot and Coheed and Cambria.
Slipknot..........Fucking Priceless....
Coheed.........could of been better. It was my third time seeing them and I feel they def could of done alot better. they semmed tight but the singer was def off that night

Me Krystal and Julie at the bar inside Madison Square Garden drinking until coheed came out cause no one wanted
tos see Trivium. Piece of fucking shit band.

You ever feel like your Lost.
it's been so long that you have
had to care about anything anyone,
your heart is dormant.
Your almost numb to that side of life
but yet everything else is alive and awake
and they annoy you every waking moment....
yeah..........
me neither.....
just a thought....
:(

cupcake out!

Vienna?

2009-02-09T17:41:00.002-05:00

There is a song by Billy Joel titled " Vienna ". The song is about how his father moved to Vienna when he was little. Left him and his mom. Vienna was his safe Haven. This was his idea of paradise. Part of the lyrics say

"Slow down you crazy child
You're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you're so smart tell me why
Are you still so afraid?
Where's the fire, what's the hurry about?
You better cool it off before you burn it out
You got so much to do and only
So many hours in a day

But you know that when the truth is told
That you can get what you want
Or you can just get old
You're gonna kick off before you even get halfway through
When will you realize...Vienna waits for you "

Now I assume that Vienna stands for his place of rest. Paradise where he wants to spend his final days in this life worry free and die. Almost like a heaven on earth. My question is what would be my Vienna. I really would not know where to start to find that answer. I haven't been to enough places to know that. The only place I can relax at is home and that is no paradise. Could Vienna be a place in your mind. Then I would have to say my Vienna is in a dream state. In your dreams you don't have anything to worry about. Everything is out of your hands. I think the dream state i would be comfortable in but then again.

I guess i will have to start looking for my Vienna..........

Cupcake OUT!

Like Breathing in Sulfur........

2009-02-03T22:43:00.003-05:00

So For some reason tonight I felt like letting go of a certain feeling I had in late October. I guess I was feeling out of it due to a certain girl and felt horrible about myself. So what did I do......I wrote a song. I had came up with this chord progression that I showed a fellow member of my band Fetal Syndrome and when he squashed the idea of an Acoustic Song just yet , I decided to use it myself. And later that night poored some emotions that I was going threw out and recorded this song in pretty much one take.

So im letting everything out cause I dont care what anyone thinks. or atleast thats what i tell myself.
so if u go to myspace.com/sadisticloveboxband you can hear it.

if i can't be honest and open with what i sing about then whats the point.

Why so glum chum?

2009-02-01T15:04:00.003-05:00

How the hell are you a 15 year old girl and you look like this

THAT BITCH IS BUSTEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
- thats Ali Lohan

and check out my bands cover of Justin Timberlake's "Sexy Back" at
myspace.com/sadisticloveboxband

Amy Whinehouse..... DRINK STEALER!!!!!!!

2009-01-14T22:42:00.002-05:00

Check out the story here

http://www.thesun.co.uk/sol/homepage/showbiz/bizarre/article2127807.ece

DRUGS ARE BAD MMMMMMMMKKKKK

In my dreams with you

2009-01-12T22:28:00.002-05:00

fetttid ....... indeed

2009-01-12T18:39:00.002-05:00

I just learned my first devin townsend song on guitar. ofcourse i picked an easy one sense i am not the greatest guitarist but pretty good i must say. Even though ive been a huge fan of his music for about 9 years now this is the first one that i picked up on my own. ( my band fetal which at the time i played bass covered oh my fucking god by strapping young lad).

its off his solo album Ziltoid. if you havent heard this album buy it.,,,,get a burnt copy,, illegally download it. whatever you have to do. its pretty amazing.

drunk blog # 1

2009-01-11T04:25:00.004-05:00

cupcake feels that black metal sucks. black metal seems to be metal tht was made for people who are addicted to metal and being meat heads but cant seem to leave it but appreciate the classical music. so they mix it together so they can hold their heads up. its like black metal fans are the re-tarded kids who can hold their heads up cause they can tie their shoes while all the rest of the mental defects in their class are still licking their hands cause they taste like their moms when in reality they are still retarded......

- cupcake out!!!!!

- drunkin blog post number 1

2009-01-09T23:10:00.003-05:00

I recently bought the domain name carrigy.net for now till i slowly build my own site im going to be using my blog as my site.

some stuff im currently messing around with art wise

+

Two Thousand and Nine dead butterflys of a deep breathe.

2009-01-02T01:10:00.003-05:00

Soooooooooo

1. Im still working on my Music everyday. I've been writing some new Sadistic Songs. Im planning on droping 600 more bucks to go into the studio to work on the songs that i have already started and now i am going to take these new songs and record a straight acoustic Ep with my drummer in ashes doing the recording. This way i will have two different albums full of my songs and its more cost effective this way. Im going to do 3 acoustic originals and one cover which will be Butterfly by Weezer.

2. Im drawing more and im planning on using them in some upcoming art shows. just gotta find which ones i wana be apart of. im going to try and do my own versions of comic and cartoon characters that are already known. I did this one drawing and a friend told me that it looked like the lenore character so i figured instead of throwing it out im going to use it as my own version of the girl. I also plan on doing my own of Sponge bob square pants, pinky and the brain, and chucky from rugrats. they will all probably be in portrait form.

3. Im working on writing and recording audio for a flash series that im going to try and do with a co-worker. It has no title and just envolves this one character going threw akward situations.

4. Im going to try and write some short storys about different topics

and last but not least. im going to get myself into better health. i feel sick

Im already addicted to new season of the bad girls club

2008-12-07T18:39:00.002-05:00

So yeah that season new season they got going on over there is pretty pretty good. Hot chicks who fucking fight and argue all the time. what is there to not like. So onto other things. Besides the fact that i always think that im dying im doing ok. Alot of people have been getting laid off at work so i have put some recording on hold which is making the release of these songs take forverrrrrrrr. I wish I had some help with the recording money but what can you do. Im doing this for myself by myself so that it comes out the way i imagine it.

Im going to actually see though if i can sell some of these songs to major labels with the help of the guy at my studio. He said he was already getting incontact with people about that and thinks I have a good shot at selling some stuff. I need it for and he agrees to only major record labels. Anything else is not worth it. If im not going to be able to use these songs as my own im not letting some shity fucking independent band use it and it goes no where. I want money for my fucking work and want my name to be on there as songwriter. I neeeeeds my grammy.

One thing is for sure. I def have enough inspiration in my life for the sadistic love box songs. I think i titled the cd perfectly cause my head right now is a fuckin playground. I just got alot of shit going on in my head. and damn someones gunna fuck up this lil blonde girl on the bad girls club. She looks like marsha brady and she is going to get her teeth knocked out.

and the band played on..........a banana peel

2008-11-02T01:38:00.003-04:00

I wrote two paragraphs worth of shit to say but decided to erase it all and leave you with this

McCain 08! Ride or die Nigga!!!!! WRITE IT DOWN!

Started working on Artwork for my Cd

2008-10-05T00:28:00.002-04:00

Well I have come up with a theme for my cd. but the color scheme is what I have been thinking about. I started sketching the idea thats in my head about the colors of the artwork. I am in love with the idea about having it in blues purples with highlights of white pink and orange. this is an idea for the background of the front cover. Its going to obvious have a totally different look with the wood texture im adding plus the text for the title and name of the band

My mind is a Playground for the Love Sick and Regretful

2008-10-01T22:20:00.005-04:00

Damn people at my job got sick and now I am. I stayed home from work today and I would of done something music wise with my time but i really was not in the mood to. Hate that feeling like you got something just laying on ur chest and your throat hurts every time you swallow. ( and not for any other reason other than a cold) tee heee heeee.

But I did go to record two weekends ago. Was fun. Different than last time cause Im a little more hands on then before. Before I was drinking beer the whole time but this time im sober through out it and the only think i drank was tea with honey and multiple energy drinks. (which i have to stop doing).

I have 5 songs that need to be finished. I wana save up more money before i go in and record and plan everything so I can get as much done as possible. Im shooting for early January so when I get the Cd printed and i will get it printed it will have 2009 on it.
Theres only one song on here that so far has to deal with my past. Everything else is new personal shit which is new and exciting and oh boy I can't wait to deal with all that shit!!!! ( sarcasm ) There is one song that is going to be light hearted cause who wants to listen to a cd full of depressing shit. Ima probally write two more light hearted songs and one more acoustic. Plus trying to do some drum bass influence shit with the drummer of my band Ashes Within.

The theme I just stumbled on trying to talk about something with my friend Jules. The theme is the subject. My mind is a playground for the Love Sick and Regretful. Atleast I will express everything on how i feel and don't really have to worry about catering to anyone. If people it get it great, if they don't then I hope they find something that they can relate to.

What will you do when it all goes away

2008-09-07T20:32:00.002-04:00

So Im starting my Sadistic Recordings in a matter of two weeks. Do I have everything done.... nope. But thats what I do best. Wait to the Last minute. The songs though should come out very nice. I have confidence in myself that I can pull all this off. I just gotta get everything down and bust peoples asses. I just want to spend alot of time singing and recording. Its really all i want to do with my time. I enjoy the feeling of creating music sounds and songs that didn't exist before.

I found a site that has web cams in Jonathans davis' recording studio. I like watching it when he is on (which is usually 1am -3 am east coast time). But the what sucks is that thats what I want and need. Not a webshow but my ownstudio and the time to do all these things. Its hard to actually find people who can play music well and have the same work ethic as i need.

I just finished doing vocals for a fetal song. Which im happy about but i wana go back and finish the other two. the only thing about doing the fetal vocals is it takes a toll on my throat. (its heavy metal)

I wana Record bass for Ashes within but we gotta lock down a new singer

So for now i can control my Sadistic records cause i make the time when its going to happen. Book it do it get it done.
Im going to have about 8-9 songs probally done fully between the first session and this one.

Plus I wana do " Sadistic Love Box - The Electronic EP. " which will be me samples and programed beats. atleast 3 songs hopefully.

New Sadistic Ep So Far

Anti-Biotics (working title)
Black October
Please Stay
Dark Candy
Kristen Open the Door
Sesh ( Acoustic home recording probally )

Getting things in order.

2008-07-26T16:32:00.002-04:00

Starting to get some songs in order so I can go record at the end of the summer. Probally the end of August. Sadistic stuff. Want Fetal and my other band Ashes to do it soon to but things gotta be in place. But sense this project is all me it will get done faster. Going to start demoing some of the songs soon. There are three that are def going to get recorded and about 12 songs in total that are still in idea form. Some of the song titles are " Dark Candy " , " Please Stay ", " Anti-biotics " , "Kristen open up the door", " Sesh " , " Nobodys Gone " and, " Im in Love with my Bartender ". Plus a bunch of unnamed songs.

Only thing is im going to use different distortion for the songs. I don't want anything to sound metal at all. These aren't metal songs. I did a metal song with " Just let it go " and I screamed on it. Thats that, that is over. These songs aren't in those vein. There will be agressive vocals but nothing to "brutal". And I hate that word. fucking death metal terms.... For what i want for the full band songs is more of an indi weezer esc. vibe.

And most of these songs are not going to have a happy vibe to them. I will express certain things of both sides of the spectrum. hopfully people will find some type of connection with them. If not, thats fine all I can do is express myself and let the world take it for what it is.

I saw him on the floor.....dead

2008-05-11T14:46:00.004-04:00

Two many things I want to get done. I need to work on Vocals for my band, then work on music for my solo project sadistic love box, want to do some art that i need to get done for this square foot show. then also I want to write some stuff. I want to write a book that i've been toiling around with the idea of the story. Don't want to go into a scifi feel but it must have some kind of odd super natural feel to it. I could go with religion but Im not ready to actually sit down and research the shit out of that stuff. Not that i am too lazy for it but I feel that when you read more and more in depth about religion you just become to jaded to it. There needs to be some kind of mystery in life. Who wants to read that everything is a farse and there is no reason for us being here. Im sure there is but im also pretty sure that there is no one that really knows why. Even the smartest being on this planet doesn't know. They just have Educated guesses based on stuff that could be either true or false But, now i've gone to far away from the topic at hand now haven't I.

Im going to mainly strictly sing with sadistic love box sense im fucking screaming all the time in fetal. who needs that shit. probally going to do about 3-4 songs this summer with sadisitc and i want to do a couple of shows doing that stuff. So far I have two songs locked for recording.

Dark Candy ( based on some goth chick i thought was cute.....what can I say )
Please Stay ( working title)
and Joanna's song ( I call it that cause it was written for my ex before the break up. not sure what to call it now def not that but its been the working title for so long thats how i remember it.

I've got a heavy song that I could use but it could work with Fetal. Im thinking of just keeping all the heavy shit fetal and all the more hard rock balladish type stuff sadistic.

I've got some bass playing duties in Ashes within. We are trying to find a new singer due to the singer of the band left after they just spent a couple thousand dollars recording an album....ass. But also since im not playing bass in fetal no more and I do not do any pop slapping in Ashes im thinking of starting a lil prodject that would probally be just instrumental in the vein of primus. I could also go in and record about 2-3 songs for that. Need to find a cool name for it though. something very odd and out of place.

Forgetting to keep

2008-04-20T22:07:00.003-04:00

So ok. I keep forgetting that I actually have this thing, That is bad but aslo good cause general life gets in the way of this blogging shit. I think it would be sad if all i did was blog. But i have alot of things going on in my life and different ideas and different ways of expressing myself that siting infront of my computer and blogging really isnt anywhere near the top of the list. Im sort of right smack in the middle of the crossroads of my musical life. Some hearts are going to be broken but who cares. I got better things to do than to worry about some peoples feelings who can't even get thier own shit together. working on some new music and got some new art actually done. when i get some jpegs made i will post them up.

Oct 29th thought

2007-10-29T20:59:00.000-04:00

Im listening to the new coheed and cambria album today. god bless claudio the singer. fuckin awesome so far. Adn the fact that there whole band's premise is that all the albums are a story which includes the main characters coheed and cambria. im actually trying to write somthing but it so far is not as involved as this guys story. its so far to complex for me to totally understand but i get the gist. I want to write somthing like this soooo badly but i seriously think with music i have add somtimes. cant help it. getmyself on one idea and then all of a sudden i have 3-4 other things i wana work on. Probally going to use it with fetal sence we did say we want to shake things up. but i gotta sit down with my singer and guitarist. the three of us seem to be the most creative with song ideas, not to knock anyone in the band but gotta think really really far out of the box. cant be to predictable and dont want the subject matter to be to saturated with normal everyday things with out getting to scifi with it. im into religion alot and the idea of not knowing what to expect out of it and the idea of hell, yet im also really into the idea of serial killers. that need to kill and how somone can actually get off doing it. expecially the ones that don't get caught. if they can do it and not get caught then good for them. we shall see what happens with my story but it will be an intersting one trust me.

General Music with Sadistic part one

2007-09-16T23:23:00.000-04:00

I have come to learn alot about music over the years. I really was into art when I was a child. Always drawing comming up with these wierd ass characters that were floating around in my mind. Mostley goffy, I can't help it I always was amused by funny things and didnt want to be so serious. So that took up all of my artistic energy asw a youth. But at the same time my parents always had me listening to CBS FM in Ny. The station always played the oldies. I love that stuff alot. To this day I can sit back and listen to that channel without having to change it once.
I really don't know what happened but ever since I was little I was never really a happy person. I watched a video of when I was about 6-8 years old just looking so fucking sad with all these kids playing around me and i just entertained myself.

That takes me to highschool. In highschool I wouldnt say that my artwork got serious but it did get pretty dark. There was an overtone of just depression. I noticed it but I enjoyed my artwork and my parents knew I was a fine well adjusted kid. I really was. I dont want you to think that i was some kid that was going around woe is me i need a knife to slit my wrist. I was just a typical kid who wanted somthing more and didnt know how to express that.

I was talking with this kid i went to school with named Mike. I have not seen mike to this day since High School. But mike got me into playing music. I was always planning on playing guitar until Mike convinced me to pick up the bass cause there is always need for a good bass player and everyone plays guitar. That was the start. I didnt really know what to do with my bass but i enjoyed it. My parents had bought it for me for christmas and also bought me 2 months of lessons. I was actually pissed about the lessons. Not cause I wanted to learn on my own but more cause I had this phobea I guess of people. Always didn't like being around people always felt so uneasy.

I started going for lessons at this place near where I lived every sunday. Then I met this kid I went to school with named Luis. I fucking hated luis when i first met him and he knows that just cause he was always fucking loud and annoying and as I said im very quite (atleast at that point). But i started to talk with him and i wanted to get somthing started wanted somone to jam out with and he played guitar and loved korn which is a whole nother blog (about korn). but me and him got together and started to jam out which is when my love for art started to fade away. I had found another way to pour out my own emotion and thoughts where people can actually feel and hear it rather than just looking at a picture.

To be continued...............